Not only that but all the ambition I should have been putting into other areas of my life was going into a dead-end job I hated with a capital H. The real kicker is that it didn't even pay enough. And in fact, I had a side hustle that was...well, let's just say it was not what I expected. So I was working a lot and barely paying the bills. Basically, I was exhausted and broke all the time.
I remember being an eternal optimist, thinking I could make my life better if I worked hard enough for it, so I'd been trying to advance through the ranks at my job. I'd put my name in for a position that would pay me $2 an hour more than I was making. Only three of those positions were available then, and I was NOT one of the recipients of one of them.
When I heard the news, I was sitting at my desk and felt anger welling up within me like water coming to a boil. Simultaneously I wanted to cry because I was trying sooooo hard to get ahead! I was so frustrated by the situation. The truth is, while I learned a lot at that job, that's been slightly useful since then; I really had no business being there. It was just what I had to do at the time to get by. After the anger dissipated, it was followed by feelings of hopelessness and desperation. That's when I said,
"There has got to be a better way, if not an easier one!"
On some level, I'd always felt that way. I'd been low-key searching for it for a long time, but instead of lurking in the back of my mind, this time, the thought came out of my mouth with a clarity that shocked me. All I really knew then was that the model of working harder to get more wasn't doing a whole lot for me.
What I longed for as much as my own family was a sense of security that I knew could never come from another person.
But thankfully that's not where my story ends.
Because then i found manifesting and it changed everything!
My Unlikely Start As A Manifesting Coach
It's hard to believe when I look back at it because it almost doesn't seem real anymore. There was a time when I was broke, searching for that special person in my life, and super unhappy with my job. In other words, life wasn't going as I had planned. One thing you should know about me is that I'm a reforming perfectionist and control freak.
It hurts to think back on this period of my life because of all that inner conflict. Yes, I had a great family, as in my Mom, siblings, and their families. I love and adore each of them, and I am genuinely grateful for each person in my life. But at the time,
I had no husband or kids of my own. That's really no surprise since I was divorced after having endured a disastrous marriage in my early twenties that almost made me forget about the idea of finding love again.
MY STORY
Now, as a self-development junkie, I'd been trying to un-condition myself from some of the old programs that everyone starts out with. You know what I mean. All the things that come from other people that you have to figure out if you believe in or not. The one perk of the side hustle was that I'd found a mentor who encouraged me and my ambition to be a better person.
So being the nerd I am, I read everything he as a successful business person I might add, suggested that I read. That included Think And Grow Rich. And though I loved the book and its message, I couldn't quite accept what it meant for me when I'd read it.
But I kept reading and searching the internet such as it was in the early 2000s.
I found an article somewhere, can't really remember now, but probably somewhere like E-zine. The article talked about something really out there to me at the time. The possibility of alternate realities and how likely it was we could change our past or create a new one. It was just crazy enough, considering what I'd been taught, for me to be interested, and I signed up for the author's email list. That was in early 2004.
Then sometime in October 2004, I opened up his weekly newsletter, and the first words that jumped out at me were THE LAW OF ATTRACTION.
I swear the phrase shimmered gold on the computer screen, and I heard angels sing. I realize now it was a big nudge from my guidance to listen because as I read, I became more and more mesmerized by the idea.
So after the first few months, things started improving because I changed my perspectives. Things went along great for a while. Then after I'd manifested a brand new job that paid me twice as much as I'd been making at the old one, I felt like I was golden. I was slightly premature there, but I'll tell you more about that in a minute.
When I was settling in at the new workplace, a work friend from the old one asked what I'd done differently. It turns out they'd seen changes in me and were fascinated at how I suddenly got a new job. Not only that, but they'd seen me become more confident and accept changes more easily. My dating stories were getting better, too, so they knew something was up. I'd had other people asking questions, as well, but I'd been reluctant to give the Law Of Attraction credit. But a very popular movie about it had recently been released, I started feeling better talking about it. So when I 'fessed up to people, they reacted better than I'd imagined they would. And that's when they started asking me for help.
I was surprised at first but realized that since I had experience with what they were going through trying to figure this out, my newfound skills and knowledge could be helpful. And that's how I start coaching on the LOA with a friend and a friend of a friend, and so on. I wasn't charging for it and didn't think it was a big deal.
Then I started getting sick, so sick I couldn't do my job anymore. It was nothing too serious, thank goodness, but it made it so it was impossible for me to be at work. When no doctor could figure out why I had the symptoms I did, my focus turned to the workplace, and I was told that I'd have to find another way to make a living. Bummer! I wasn't happy because I'd manifested the job for myself.
One day I found myself lamenting to the same former co-worker who'd got me started helping others. I told him about my new situation he looked at me and said, "Duh, are you that blind? Just start coaching on the LOA, which you're doing anyway, and charge for it. You're too good at it not to get paid. And I feel slightly guilty that I didn't pay you by the way. "
I laughed at first, but it did make sense since I'd spent several years honing skills, and mentoring people through their learning curves. Eventually, I got certified as a coach, and the rest is history.
Now I coach, mentor, teach, podcast and create digital products all about manifesting your best life through co-creation with universal forces.
Needless to say, I got to work trying to figure out the Law Of Attraction ASAP! But the LOA was just the latest thing that didn't work out for me as expected. I was disappointed at first because my results were lackluster, and I felt I'd been doing so well.
There was a point about three months in where I considered forgetting the whole darned thing. After thinking about it, I decided three things kept me from stuffing it all away and leaving my life to chance.
So I realized my endless quest for perfection might not be the way to go with this. However, I could take what I'd learned from my failures so far and put it to good use. That's when I started keeping a record of what I'd been doing and what results were showing up.
That was a study in humility, to say the least. It just so happened that here was a very big learning curve for me. And it stemmed from all that inner conflict I mentioned earlier. All of the paradigms of my past kept popping up to sabotage the new beliefs I was trying to create for myself. My emotions were all over the place for a while and even though I wanted it to be easy, I knew I had to get through the period of adjustment to get to the good stuff.
What you can take from all that is that while universal principles are unchanging and work with us, we determine how easy or difficult it is for us to manifest.
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